smiling has become a thing for me

just like it's so weird

i don't mean like 'oh it's become a normal thing' tbh i'm made of smiles
i mean like
different kind of smiles and how they feel and just happiness

like when i grin at Beck- that'S IT. I'M GRINNING LIKE IT'S A FULL OUT GRIN i would call it a grin i've never caleld a smile a grin before
it feels very
very happy
i feel my mouth arch up
and my teeth show
and a happy feeling

when i see something that makes me like 'aw' like Beck making and handing out crowns to little kids it's like this sweet smile like
no teeth
it's like a natural smile
like 'wow i really ilke this, this is a nice moment' and ust the realization of the nice moment like there's quote about standing back and looking and realizing life is actually pretty great and appreciating htis moment in time you're in right now and all the good things and that's the smile

and i'm not trying ot make this all about Beck i'm just saying like
idk i've started paying more attention to smiles and i never really did before

so many smiles
they all feel so different

i really love not being able to stop smiling
i love the feeling
i love shy smiles

i love embarrassed cute little smiles

and sad smiles
sad smiles are wah
because it's like a 'given up' smile
like it's the physical embodiment of 'yeah' like just yeah like 'yeah. i'm okay. i'll live. have a good one. yeah.'
like trying to reassure others when you can't yourself

idk smiles man