Post by Admin on Jul 11, 2015 21:34:10 GMT -6
I really like my boyfriend.
(long story, skip to bottom for more relevant topic)
I was so "meh" about him when we first met like I completely expected him to just be another notch-on-the-bedpost sort of thing. And then he got into my head one night when we were at my car talking and I half-joked that he only kept me around for you-know. He got super serious and told me that that was not at all why he kept asking me to hang out. (I was on my period that day and he knew it) And since then made a point that we wouldn't you-know every time we hung out (which was super often. Like 4-5 times a week average). I resisted emotions for a while but he kept doing things that just really got to me. Like the time I called him when i showed up to his apartment and told him that i hadn't left my car yet because some creepy guy was banging on the passenger door telling me to get out of my car and in less than 30 seconds he and his friend were outside of my car with the guy pinned to the ground demanding to know why he was bothering me. Or how he'd just lay on the roof of my car with me and get super into Lana Del Ray or cry listening to The Killers because it reminded him of the mess that became his baby momma's and his situation because he didn't miss her but when she left she started refusing to let him see his son and that killed him. Or how when his depression gets really bad and he starts with drawing he knows how nervous I get because I want to help him and be there for him but I can't do anything so he kisses me in this way that's just pure raw emotion and it's tears and anger and passion and so reassuring like yes he's falling apart now but he sees me and he'll come back for me when he's picked himself up and he knows that I'm right there ready to help him with every piece.
But god he's so reckless sometimes. He gets into fights and he drinks (but he's not an aggressive drunk just a sleepy/affectionate one) and smokes and gets into all sorts of shenanigans and i can't always tell when he's high-texting or seriously needs help.
Like earlier he texted "Heeelp" which sounds joking so i asked "help with what?"
No reply.
"Bby. wyd?"
"Stuck ;-;"
"Stuck where? o.O"
3 hours later he hasn't said a thing. I'd call but that makes me so anxious because like chances are he's just at home high af and/or his phone is dead.
This has happened a few times before and he's always okay but I'm always worried one day he won't be.
But he knows that and I know he's trying to get better about it.
(long story, skip to bottom for more relevant topic)
I was so "meh" about him when we first met like I completely expected him to just be another notch-on-the-bedpost sort of thing. And then he got into my head one night when we were at my car talking and I half-joked that he only kept me around for you-know. He got super serious and told me that that was not at all why he kept asking me to hang out. (I was on my period that day and he knew it) And since then made a point that we wouldn't you-know every time we hung out (which was super often. Like 4-5 times a week average). I resisted emotions for a while but he kept doing things that just really got to me. Like the time I called him when i showed up to his apartment and told him that i hadn't left my car yet because some creepy guy was banging on the passenger door telling me to get out of my car and in less than 30 seconds he and his friend were outside of my car with the guy pinned to the ground demanding to know why he was bothering me. Or how he'd just lay on the roof of my car with me and get super into Lana Del Ray or cry listening to The Killers because it reminded him of the mess that became his baby momma's and his situation because he didn't miss her but when she left she started refusing to let him see his son and that killed him. Or how when his depression gets really bad and he starts with drawing he knows how nervous I get because I want to help him and be there for him but I can't do anything so he kisses me in this way that's just pure raw emotion and it's tears and anger and passion and so reassuring like yes he's falling apart now but he sees me and he'll come back for me when he's picked himself up and he knows that I'm right there ready to help him with every piece.
But god he's so reckless sometimes. He gets into fights and he drinks (but he's not an aggressive drunk just a sleepy/affectionate one) and smokes and gets into all sorts of shenanigans and i can't always tell when he's high-texting or seriously needs help.
Like earlier he texted "Heeelp" which sounds joking so i asked "help with what?"
No reply.
"Bby. wyd?"
"Stuck ;-;"
"Stuck where? o.O"
3 hours later he hasn't said a thing. I'd call but that makes me so anxious because like chances are he's just at home high af and/or his phone is dead.
This has happened a few times before and he's always okay but I'm always worried one day he won't be.
But he knows that and I know he's trying to get better about it.
