Post by prouvaire on Jun 6, 2014 12:14:22 GMT -6
why do they have to ruin everything :c
I'm perfectly happy having friendships with people of the male population. I think I actually get along better with some males rather than females. But that's all I want are friendships right now.
and I've been really close to this guy for a long time, and he was my prom date and everything and I love him and everything but I don't love him and I always thought he felt the same way.
but I went to senior beach week and we were alone in the hotel room I was sharing with some other friends and we were just talking and watching tv and challenging each other on quizup and it was getting really late and I told him I was going to sleep and that he should go, and he asked for a hug which I'm perfectly fine with as long as it's platonic, but he went for a kiss and I just
I obviously didn't let him and I tried to make it sound like it didn't bother me and I kept smiling as I told him to just leave, but jfc I was really upset.
like, I'm not the kind to kiss on the first date, which that totally wasn't a date anyways, but you know what I mean. I've only ever kissed a guy once, and that's only after we had been dating for three months and he had the decency to warn me and I consented and I didn't like it and he never tried again because you know, he respected my boundaries and that's why we're still such good friends. But this guy, he didn't even ask, he didn't even say "I'm going to kiss you right now" he just went for it and I'm so glad my reflexes were fast enough. Like no, I didn't ask for this, this isn't how you ask someone out first of all, and I know he only did it because he's really awkward and easily pressured by societal norms and he probably thought it was okay because he usually isn't like that, but it still doesn't excuse him and I couldn't hang out with him the rest of the trip without feeling uncomfortable and now I don't want to hang out with him at all ever, and that sucks because he was a really great friend.
and despite it all, I still felt bad and I'm really upset that he got upset and told his friends that I rejected him and that they told my friends and that they confronted me; not that they were angry with me or anything, but it was just something that I would have loved to just sweep under the rug and pretend it didn't happen and not have everyone know about. And because of that, I basically had to come out to my friends as asexual and possibly completely aromantic even though I don't want to adhere to sexual labels because it was just a lot easier to explain, and that makes me really upset because now I feel like I have to prove my sexuality or lack thereof even though it could change at anytime and people could call me a liar, which is why I was so afraid of labeling myself in the first place.
Basically, this guy made me come out as something I might not be just so I could smooth other any future drama, and I'm really angry at him and I don't want to hang out with him anymore and I really want to blame him for ruining our friendship.
I'm perfectly happy having friendships with people of the male population. I think I actually get along better with some males rather than females. But that's all I want are friendships right now.
and I've been really close to this guy for a long time, and he was my prom date and everything and I love him and everything but I don't love him and I always thought he felt the same way.
but I went to senior beach week and we were alone in the hotel room I was sharing with some other friends and we were just talking and watching tv and challenging each other on quizup and it was getting really late and I told him I was going to sleep and that he should go, and he asked for a hug which I'm perfectly fine with as long as it's platonic, but he went for a kiss and I just
I obviously didn't let him and I tried to make it sound like it didn't bother me and I kept smiling as I told him to just leave, but jfc I was really upset.
like, I'm not the kind to kiss on the first date, which that totally wasn't a date anyways, but you know what I mean. I've only ever kissed a guy once, and that's only after we had been dating for three months and he had the decency to warn me and I consented and I didn't like it and he never tried again because you know, he respected my boundaries and that's why we're still such good friends. But this guy, he didn't even ask, he didn't even say "I'm going to kiss you right now" he just went for it and I'm so glad my reflexes were fast enough. Like no, I didn't ask for this, this isn't how you ask someone out first of all, and I know he only did it because he's really awkward and easily pressured by societal norms and he probably thought it was okay because he usually isn't like that, but it still doesn't excuse him and I couldn't hang out with him the rest of the trip without feeling uncomfortable and now I don't want to hang out with him at all ever, and that sucks because he was a really great friend.
and despite it all, I still felt bad and I'm really upset that he got upset and told his friends that I rejected him and that they told my friends and that they confronted me; not that they were angry with me or anything, but it was just something that I would have loved to just sweep under the rug and pretend it didn't happen and not have everyone know about. And because of that, I basically had to come out to my friends as asexual and possibly completely aromantic even though I don't want to adhere to sexual labels because it was just a lot easier to explain, and that makes me really upset because now I feel like I have to prove my sexuality or lack thereof even though it could change at anytime and people could call me a liar, which is why I was so afraid of labeling myself in the first place.
Basically, this guy made me come out as something I might not be just so I could smooth other any future drama, and I'm really angry at him and I don't want to hang out with him anymore and I really want to blame him for ruining our friendship.