Post by eris on Mar 24, 2014 21:40:28 GMT -6
I just have such a hard time doing things.
It's because of my coworkers. They INTIMIDATE me so instead of focusing soley on doing my job, I'm focusing on them being around me and watching me and waiting for me to mess up.
I feel like the butt of the joke most of the time. I feel like I'll never fit in with the 'work group'
I always feel left out.
And nobody is professional.
It's awkward how unprofessional it is.
Some days I enjoy how lax it is and other times it aggravates me to no end.
I definitely don't want to stay here forever, but god I don't know how long I'm willing to stay now.
But I know I won't leave unless I 100% get a new job.
And awful to admit but Beck is a lot of the reason I'm staying, because I know I won't ever see him outside of work.
I just
I was so enthusiastic for work in the beginning
and most of the time I still am
I DO love it, I still really love it
But I have just noticed I've finally gotten to the point where I'm generally.. discontent
Like I eventually do with everything in my life
I still get excited for work and all that but it's finally to the point where I see it as a hassle sometimes
All thoughts go back to when I first started and one of my managers made a joke about how happy and excited I was to work and she said "I give you two weeks before you start hating it"
I made it to a year
Go me
It's because of my coworkers. They INTIMIDATE me so instead of focusing soley on doing my job, I'm focusing on them being around me and watching me and waiting for me to mess up.
I feel like the butt of the joke most of the time. I feel like I'll never fit in with the 'work group'
I always feel left out.
And nobody is professional.
It's awkward how unprofessional it is.
Some days I enjoy how lax it is and other times it aggravates me to no end.
I definitely don't want to stay here forever, but god I don't know how long I'm willing to stay now.
But I know I won't leave unless I 100% get a new job.
And awful to admit but Beck is a lot of the reason I'm staying, because I know I won't ever see him outside of work.
I just
I was so enthusiastic for work in the beginning
and most of the time I still am
I DO love it, I still really love it
But I have just noticed I've finally gotten to the point where I'm generally.. discontent
Like I eventually do with everything in my life
I still get excited for work and all that but it's finally to the point where I see it as a hassle sometimes
All thoughts go back to when I first started and one of my managers made a joke about how happy and excited I was to work and she said "I give you two weeks before you start hating it"
I made it to a year
Go me